jennalou, where are you?

come back!
i have no idea where you are!
you better come back.
.. or i'll cry.
anyway.. i guess since i haven't made a post in over a month.. i should vent a little.
i downloaded a castle episode off of iTunes and it disappeared.
DISAPPEARED!
i'm P'd O.
because it shouldn't be P O'd.
who gets piss offed?
it's pissed off. right?
of course right.
well...
i just received a new email from my friend. i'm gonna go check it.. out, now-now, to God be the glor-ayy.

inside jokes, frickin' frustration, and shirts that don't fit us anymore.
hey libby ;D

ice cream catastrophe

the funniest thing happened today.
my mom and i went to get ice cream.
and.. my cone started to drip like it's never dripped before.
and.. i got ice cream all over the car seat and seatbelt and myself and my clothes.
and i was trying to get the remainder of the ice cream in my mouth, but it just wouldn't fit and it got all over my face.
it was hilarious.
doesn't sound hilarious.
but it truly was.
my mom was like yelling at me but cracking up.
i'm such a freak.
i miss camp.
i made such good friends there last week.
i wish i could go back.
hopefully i'll see some of them again.
uhhh... i'll recommend some music.

glamorous indie rock and roll - the killers
where the white boys dance - the killers
bigger than my body - john mayer
11-11 - andrew bird
psychotic girl - the black keys

twist ice cream cones, funny album cover art, and made up words,
1!887.

what an odd child i am becoming.

i have finally realized how utterly crazy i am.
but it's okay :)
i've accepted it.
you know what's just as crazy as i am?
the money you could be saving with geico.
just kidding.
um, but i did make a buttload of money babysitting this week.
like over 100 bucks. barely. but still.
that's a big butt.
and i cannot lie.
you know what?
this is the least depressing post i've written so far.
pretty sure.
i must be in a decent mood.
i mean, there's nothing really for me to mad about.
so here's to life.
lechaim.
now i want to watch fiddler on the roof.
anyway.
i'm off to email jenna, i think.

burritos, awesome commercials, and uh, yeah,
me.

my dreams are too big for this "town"

i wish i lived in a tiny town.. where no one would amount to much.
that sounds strange.. but living in chicago, i'm surrounded by successful people and it makes me feel incompetent.
plus, i want broadway.
i need broadway.
i daydream about broadway when people all around me are trying to capture my attention.
broadway is me.
well, that 's a wee bit exaggerated seeing as i'm not all that talented.
but i want to try.
i'll practice.
next year, i want to be ms. hannigan in annie.
but i'm afraid of not getting the part.
ms. hannigan can't have starry eyes like i do.
that's annie.
and by no means am i annie.
so i need to control my eyes.
that sounds so ridiculous.
today we had an hour of school.
and then it was over.
i didn't say bye to everyone i wanted to.
i didn't even see a lot of people.
several realizations came crashing towards me at once.
and you know what?
it sucked.
but my hopes and dreams have to help me through this.
all summer i'll practice..
i want this.
i want people to take me seriously.
and maybe i'll buy some funky clothes.
so people notice me.

whatever.
i'll deal.
urgh.
i don't know what i'm talking about.
-cry me a river-

okay, so...

my school year is practically over!
super happy about that.
today i had a nice conversation with God.
it was pretty one-sided, i must admit.
everyone says "you have to listen to God".. but i'm still figuring out how i would do that :/
so i told him i am sorry for being a sinner.
i've found that it's impossible to not sin, so i gave up on trying.
which sounds horrible.
but if i have dirty thoughts, they are not intentional.
it is the direct effect of public school.
so i don't blame myself.
and i tell God these kind of things.
because i'm sure he can understand.
and i asked him to help me be more... nice?
i may have said polite.
well, either way i tried to explain to him certain situations.
which is pretty ridiculous, by the way, because he knows everything.
so yeah.
it was pretty cool, though.
anyway..
my recommendation for the day is:
MIKA.
he's a singer.
yeah.
i felt it appropriate to recommend him, seeing as i'm listening to him right now..
it wouldn't be right to recommend anyone else.
here are some good songs by him:
basically any of his album "Life In Cartoon Motion".. but here are some great ones...
-Grace Kelly
-Lollipop
-Any Other World
-Big Girl (You Are Beautiful)
and you know.. listen to him.. he has a very fun, likeable sound.


peace and music!

edittt.

i meant nbc, which i realized while watching i'm a celebrity today.
and by the way, i'm super glad spencer & heidi are gone.
but i may miss them.
even though they sicken me.
okay, well...
i might as well... reccomend a song, ya'know?

i'll reccomend a cover..
bette davis eyes - leighton meester
mind you, this isn't her song.
it's a cover.
hence, why i wrote COVER.
yeah.
chicken pot pie and stickers!

random.

this will not be nearly as depressing as my other posts.
guaranteed.
or your money back.
seriously, though.
i feel so random right now.
i'm gonna go ahead and list some awesome fictional and real people, stores, companies, and things and why:
-lisa simpson, for being an awesome activist and teaching her father right from wrong.
-anne shirley (anne of green gables), for speaking her mind and having a wicked imagination.
-clark kent, for being ah-dorable, and for turning into superman, who doesn't just save smallville, but all of us.
-jenna(lou), for actually taking the time to read my blog and emailing me.. which i need to commence again, btw.
-sarah, for following me, and for writing awesome blog posts.
-wet seal (i don't care if it's not a person), for that amazing sale. and i got 4 graphic t's for like 20 bucks. and i love that store so much because of it.
-my sister, hannah, who will never read this, but for making me laugh with her awesome crazy dances.
-heidi pratt ( or montag ), for saving spencer. amen ;D
-ABC, for airing I'm A Celebrity Get Me Out Of Here, which makes me laugh so hard.
-jonas brothers, for staying grounded and being amazing musicians and people.
-seventeen magazine, for the june issue.
-disney channel, for the entertainment.
-american idol producers, for creating an amazing show.
-tyra banks, for hosting antm.
-my brothers, for hogging the tv.
-jenny, for being a jbf buddy even after i left jbf ;D
-jbf, i may kinda hate you now, but you made my jb love so much more intense.
-so you think you can dance, for providing an immense form of entertainment.
-the bacholer(ette), for being so completely idiotic, and breaking hearts.
-elle woods, for proving you can be blonde and smart.
-audrey, for pretending to be ditzy, but being smart.
-erin, for being one of the only people who laughs at my jokes.
-meg cabot, for writing ah-mazing books.
-e. lockhart, for writing ahh-mazing books as well.
-jk rowling, for creating harry potter.
-harry potter, for being .. my wizard book crush.
-ron weasley, for being my other wizard book crush.
-tmz,for being an awesome show and making fun of the celebrities we can't stand.
-irma, for saying dirty things without realizing it.
-lauren, for defending asians but not being asian.
-mary poppins, for telling us the antidote to mdeicine.
-bikini girl on american idol, for making fun of kara dioguardi, who not only can sing better than you, but has better abs ;D
-junk food, for saving my life.
-Jesus, for actually saving my life.

.................................i doubt anyone read that whole list.............................................


kung fu fighting, baseball bats, and banana smoothies.

clark kent/superman

I always think.. wow life must have been hard for clark kent.
he has 2 identities.
he has to save the world, and write articles about his other identity, superman.
and i thought my life was hard.
sometimes i feel like i'm trying to help people.
but i always end up hurting them.
then, the other me, clark kent, has to cover up for superman's mistake.
write an article about how he just messed up.
just that once.
he'll fix it.
rest reassured.
but no one listens to clark kent.
they all are mad at superman for screwing up once or twice.
they think that because he's not human, he shouldn't make mistakes.
i'm human, so why do they criticize me when i make mistakes?
if i say something stupid, i can feel them laughing behind my back.
if i do something offensive but wasn't meant to be, they won't talk to me.
they are not my friends.
because why would i be friends with them?
they are me.
i am them.
you lost yet?
ahh.. i am.
so far, i've compared myself to clark kent/superman and told you that no matter what happens, i still ridicule myself. i still look down on myself. unlike clark kent to superman. or vice versa. but like everyone else.
i'm sorry if i've lost you..
okay.
a movie you should watch:
drive me crazy (1999)
... i missed the first half hour on tv last night, but it was pretty good. predictable, but pretty good.
and Adrian Grenier is a hunk. He was also in The Devil Wears Prada as Anne Hathaway's boyfriend.
And Sabrina the teenage witch ( Melissa Joan Hart ) stars in the movie.

let me think about this for awhile.
i'm going to reccomend a .. song.
got it.
jenna, although i doubt you will suspect me of it, i am going to use a five for fighting song, but i hope you don't think i stole the idea from you.
a good song:
disneyland - five for fighting.
.. thanks for the comments jenna and sarah.
jenna, i will definitely talk to you if i need advice or help.
you guys rock for reading my extremely boring blog posts.
and thanks for reading all the way to the bottom of this post, seeing as it made no sense whatsoever.
that took me over 10 minutes to write!
lots o' love,
libster.

Quiet, But Loud.

I usually just listen to my friends talk about whatever.
About their boyfriends.
About their first kiss.
About food.
About pain.
About other girls.
And all I do is nod.
And laugh.
And smile.
And shake my head.
And agree.
Sometimes it's like I was programmed to do that.
I know I wasn't.
I always make the mistakes of becoming friends with loud people.
I'm pretty loud.
They're louder.
Their personality's louder.
Their style is usually louder.
Their voices are louder.
Their opinions are louder.
And I try to talk about something going on in my life.
But they already know.
Because what's going on in m life is them.
Their life is the interesting one, not mine.
They are the ones with the boyfriends.
They're the ones with the guy telling them they're beautiful.
I'm the one watching and nodding.
Even if I like that guy.
Or that guy used to like me.
Or I used to hate that guy.
Or that guy hates me.
I'm a friend to some people.
An acquaintance to others.
I don't give anyone a reason to refer to me as an enemy.
I try to remain.. neutral.
I don't like to pick sides.
Unless we're referring to American Idol ;D
But I don't like choosing between friends.
Even if it's between a best friend and a not so close friend.
IT's not fair.
It's not fun.
No, thank you.
I'd rather go with neutral.
I try not to be annoying.
I try to accommodate people.
I'm losing myself.
I need to find me.

Liger.

Lion + Tiger = Liger.

Me + Him = Meant To Be.

Her + Him = To Be.

ahh, if only..
i wish i could fly to the peak of highest mountain instead of having to climb it.
because the journey is a pain.
but the feat is great.
but is it worth the pain i cause myself and others?
perhaps not. but i'll never know if i don't try.
this blog is starting to feel like poetry.
poorly written poetry, mind you.
warning: some of my blog posts may be depressing.
warning II: some of my blog posts may be random.
warning III: some of my blog posts may be both.
but, all of them will describe thoughts straight out of my noggin.
so i may recall something that made me cry yesterday, and something that made me laugh today.
are you lost yet?
i'll find you.
just let me know.
let me explain the current headline of my blog: i titled it fool because i'm a fool.
and because you very well might be a fool for reading this.
but who am i to judge, eh?
well.. i'll leave you on the more musical side of things...

4 great singers:
-adele
-ingrid michaelson
-regina spektor
-juanes (warning: spanish)

3 great bands:
-hellogoodbye
-hot hot heat
-head automatica
(they all start with h, but i assure you that was unintentional)

2 great songs:
-ralphie - lily allen
-your body is a wonderland - johnn mayer

2 mildly random common-themed video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CRZBsvzxWxQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wRtuUEBB1cE

(by the way: first video is my dad, second one is my mom.. from a while back, before i was born, duh..that's a children christian's series.. watch the videos my parents have great voices! oh, and
it was going to be one video, but i found my mom AND dad, so i figured i'd post both)..
enjoy ;D

peace, love, spicy chicken.