clark kent/superman

I always think.. wow life must have been hard for clark kent.
he has 2 identities.
he has to save the world, and write articles about his other identity, superman.
and i thought my life was hard.
sometimes i feel like i'm trying to help people.
but i always end up hurting them.
then, the other me, clark kent, has to cover up for superman's mistake.
write an article about how he just messed up.
just that once.
he'll fix it.
rest reassured.
but no one listens to clark kent.
they all are mad at superman for screwing up once or twice.
they think that because he's not human, he shouldn't make mistakes.
i'm human, so why do they criticize me when i make mistakes?
if i say something stupid, i can feel them laughing behind my back.
if i do something offensive but wasn't meant to be, they won't talk to me.
they are not my friends.
because why would i be friends with them?
they are me.
i am them.
you lost yet?
ahh.. i am.
so far, i've compared myself to clark kent/superman and told you that no matter what happens, i still ridicule myself. i still look down on myself. unlike clark kent to superman. or vice versa. but like everyone else.
i'm sorry if i've lost you..
okay.
a movie you should watch:
drive me crazy (1999)
... i missed the first half hour on tv last night, but it was pretty good. predictable, but pretty good.
and Adrian Grenier is a hunk. He was also in The Devil Wears Prada as Anne Hathaway's boyfriend.
And Sabrina the teenage witch ( Melissa Joan Hart ) stars in the movie.

let me think about this for awhile.
i'm going to reccomend a .. song.
got it.
jenna, although i doubt you will suspect me of it, i am going to use a five for fighting song, but i hope you don't think i stole the idea from you.
a good song:
disneyland - five for fighting.
.. thanks for the comments jenna and sarah.
jenna, i will definitely talk to you if i need advice or help.
you guys rock for reading my extremely boring blog posts.
and thanks for reading all the way to the bottom of this post, seeing as it made no sense whatsoever.
that took me over 10 minutes to write!
lots o' love,
libster.

Quiet, But Loud.

I usually just listen to my friends talk about whatever.
About their boyfriends.
About their first kiss.
About food.
About pain.
About other girls.
And all I do is nod.
And laugh.
And smile.
And shake my head.
And agree.
Sometimes it's like I was programmed to do that.
I know I wasn't.
I always make the mistakes of becoming friends with loud people.
I'm pretty loud.
They're louder.
Their personality's louder.
Their style is usually louder.
Their voices are louder.
Their opinions are louder.
And I try to talk about something going on in my life.
But they already know.
Because what's going on in m life is them.
Their life is the interesting one, not mine.
They are the ones with the boyfriends.
They're the ones with the guy telling them they're beautiful.
I'm the one watching and nodding.
Even if I like that guy.
Or that guy used to like me.
Or I used to hate that guy.
Or that guy hates me.
I'm a friend to some people.
An acquaintance to others.
I don't give anyone a reason to refer to me as an enemy.
I try to remain.. neutral.
I don't like to pick sides.
Unless we're referring to American Idol ;D
But I don't like choosing between friends.
Even if it's between a best friend and a not so close friend.
IT's not fair.
It's not fun.
No, thank you.
I'd rather go with neutral.
I try not to be annoying.
I try to accommodate people.
I'm losing myself.
I need to find me.

Liger.

Lion + Tiger = Liger.

Me + Him = Meant To Be.

Her + Him = To Be.

ahh, if only..
i wish i could fly to the peak of highest mountain instead of having to climb it.
because the journey is a pain.
but the feat is great.
but is it worth the pain i cause myself and others?
perhaps not. but i'll never know if i don't try.
this blog is starting to feel like poetry.
poorly written poetry, mind you.
warning: some of my blog posts may be depressing.
warning II: some of my blog posts may be random.
warning III: some of my blog posts may be both.
but, all of them will describe thoughts straight out of my noggin.
so i may recall something that made me cry yesterday, and something that made me laugh today.
are you lost yet?
i'll find you.
just let me know.
let me explain the current headline of my blog: i titled it fool because i'm a fool.
and because you very well might be a fool for reading this.
but who am i to judge, eh?
well.. i'll leave you on the more musical side of things...

4 great singers:
-adele
-ingrid michaelson
-regina spektor
-juanes (warning: spanish)

3 great bands:
-hellogoodbye
-hot hot heat
-head automatica
(they all start with h, but i assure you that was unintentional)

2 great songs:
-ralphie - lily allen
-your body is a wonderland - johnn mayer

2 mildly random common-themed video:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CRZBsvzxWxQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wRtuUEBB1cE

(by the way: first video is my dad, second one is my mom.. from a while back, before i was born, duh..that's a children christian's series.. watch the videos my parents have great voices! oh, and
it was going to be one video, but i found my mom AND dad, so i figured i'd post both)..
enjoy ;D

peace, love, spicy chicken.